GB, you are living a good life compared to a lot of us out there...4 weeks of vacation, a couple hundred bucks a day coming in for barely leaving home, pilates, and dinners out... and still so miserable. It's unfortunate. Are you sure it's the career and not something personal inside of you or people surrounding you and are venting and frustrated? If you analyze your income vs the work you are putting into it, you are doing really well. I get it, I've been there, but you seem to be misdirecting your anger against this career choice you made instead of putting that energy into something more productive, even for less money that will make you happy inside. Try and get up with a purpose and fulfillment perhaps that fills that void. We've been friends a long time, and hate to see you in this misery cycle you are in.
The grass will always be greener somewhere else, but the truth of the matter is none of us realized our potential when it mattered. Knocking on the door of AARP and retirement and collecting SS is not what those highly paid head hunters are looking for. No matter how good you/we think you/we are, you/we are not as good as the fresh college graduates and go-getters starting out with their life, hungry to make a name for themself. Let's just face reality and at this age, it's a risk for companies to invest in us, retirement, medical, 401K when we have such a short shelf life in return.
That brass ring you are aiming for may be out of reach but try for something else that will make you happy and fulfill the need you have to get away from being a notary. I think you are stuck like most of us, you hate it, but paying the bills.
I know and see the frustration, but it's aimed at the wrong bunch of people, many of those who do not share in your grief and really love what they do and the money is secondary.
I got knocked off my pedestal for a while now, it doesn't feel good, but it's life, and will face it and accept it and try and see the positivity in it, instead of really resenting it. It's like a bad relationship you can't leave, but in the end, you are just hurting yourself.
At some point, just try and move forward and work with what you have to offer in a job that perhaps you never thought of. I am trying to move forward, but not qualified for too much I am finding that I thought I was. Eventually, I will find something, and will not be near what I had lost, but such is life in it's twists and turns. Nothing lasts forever. The money maybe will have to be secondary to finding my niche and enjoying it. Wishing you all the best and find your happy place once again.
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